
Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
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when you still miss him in spite of it all

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hey everyone...
i lurk around this community and don't post much. but i have a question.
my husband was abusive and I have left him for good. need to figure out how to go about getting an actual divorce. he owned guns and he threatened to kill me. that's when i left.
but there are good times i remember, and we were together for such a relatively short time period.
sometimes ...
i don't know, sometimes i remember the times that were good. sometimes i DO miss him. i miss the good times that we had.
does anybody else experience this? i left early enough that i remember him as not just a monster, but as a fellow human being that I also loved.
I have friends who don't understand this. Who don't see how I could possibly possibly miss somebody who ultimately treated me so badly.
Friends not understanding annoys me, too. They don't get that it's a knot tied together. the love and the abuse. i don't know. i posted about this before, months ago. and i still feel the same.
i lurk around this community and don't post much. but i have a question.
my husband was abusive and I have left him for good. need to figure out how to go about getting an actual divorce. he owned guns and he threatened to kill me. that's when i left.
but there are good times i remember, and we were together for such a relatively short time period.
sometimes ...
i don't know, sometimes i remember the times that were good. sometimes i DO miss him. i miss the good times that we had.
does anybody else experience this? i left early enough that i remember him as not just a monster, but as a fellow human being that I also loved.
I have friends who don't understand this. Who don't see how I could possibly possibly miss somebody who ultimately treated me so badly.
Friends not understanding annoys me, too. They don't get that it's a knot tied together. the love and the abuse. i don't know. i posted about this before, months ago. and i still feel the same.
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