I completely understand how you feel,the only thing I can say is to start loving yourself,EVERY time you look in the mirror,make eye contact and say "I love me",it sounds silly but it does work and after a bit you start to feel differently Im in the same place and I struggle too,just do what you can to not focus on the crap and focus on the good,like simple things the sun on your face,the joy of a child,the love of Jesus,its a very difficult process but no one can do it for us,Im here if you need to talk.
love and hugs

Sorry you feel blue good thoughts comingto you. Hang on talk and fight back

you have to be strong and pull yourself out of this. You are a valuable person who has been very hurt. Get yourself some professional help, someone who will guide you through this nightmare and help you to heal yourself.

I really feel for you. I think almost all of us on this board and others have had those feelings. I'd definitely recommend a fun activity or a treat. I know that sounds terrible--and it can't always work--but for me, when I'm really down and out, nothing does it better than watching Bridget Jone's Diary with a cup of hot chocolate with whipped cream--while sitting in my pajamas. For me, when the world beats me up--I need to escape. Take yourself to an afternoon matinee or to a late night movie--indulge in something that is just or you--that you don't share with anyone else. If money is a problem--go get a movie or something from the library. Better yet, sit there with a good book.
I just read one that I've been telling EVERYONE about. It is called EAT, LOVE, PRAY by Elizabeth Gilbert--you can get it most places, like from Barnes and Noble for 12.00 or so. It is a good read before bed book or bathtub book.
My suggestions--light candles, meditate, watch your fav. movies, read your fav. books, go for a long walk, anything to get you to think about nothing but what is in front of you at that moment.

Get a little book. Write a list of your 20 favourite things - treats or just nice things.

Use the rest of the book to plan how you will do it, journal how and when you did it, and write any other nice experiences that came your way as a result of you doing the actions on the list.

Then you can look back on the good times with good memories and not forget them.

It also makes you plan time for yourself.