Is anyone else angry? IF so... post it here

LMFAO!!!

hells yeah! good job!!

k, i just wanna say....this is a rant. . . just letting out some anger. NOT how i feel all the time, or what i want in reality. =]

for my mother,...

i want you to see, taste, and feel EVERYTHING i've ever been through. I want you to know in your heart that your a HORRIBLE parent, and live a long.....long sad life knowing it. I want it written on your forehead for everyone to see. you hurt your little baby, and there NO excuse.

To my father...

I want you to see, feel, and taste EVERYTHING i have in this world. And i want you to know this is YOUR fault too, you left me in filth. I want you to also live a long life full of guilt.

to who ever is responsible for my sexual abuse...

my sentence to you is to be frozen and stuck with yourself forever.... alone. I want you to know i'm standing here waiting for you,.... hating you. I hope you know fear and guilt like nothing else in this earth. And i hope you take it to your grave, and never find a drop of happiness along the way.

heh... yeah i'm bitter...i know. . .but hey...anger is part of the process right?

im def angry..hurt..sad..and misrible..yet the person who makes me feel all that i still love..my gulit wont let me punish him as he does me.. but i want to vent what i feel and think..at the moments he makes me feel at my worst..

I want to scream.."who are you to judge me" "what makes you BETTER" " AND HOW DARE YOU.." I want to grab him..make him feel all the pain fear and anger that is in me..most of all..i want him to see the man hes wants to be least like he has become..his own father!!

I HATE YOU _ _ _ _!!! and wish i never EVER met you!!

now back to reality..i could and would never say that..but at my worst moments i wish i could..cause he's never had a problem voicing his..

thanks..feel a lil better..

my dad who abused all of his kids he claimed. if u are not already dead i woud sting u up beat u to a pulp and pour fire ants all over u and lite u on fire

Doesn't that make you feel better to get it all out? Yes this is the site to let loose and rave. Go ahead I did.

To "Mr Leonard" who took the innocence of sooo many children, boys and girls alike! I know that you are rotting in hell! I wish you had been castrated, sent to prison and raped by all of the inmates! I hope all of those inmates are in hell with you and having a great time tormenting you up the ass for all of the children that you raped and ruined thier lives! Burn in HELL MF'r!!!!!!!
To my soon to be EX- You lied to me and told me that you would love me and take care of me forever! You know all of my secrets, all of the horror that I have dealt with in my life and still, you physically, mentally and financially abused me!! You beat me nearly to death and walked away with everything that we worked so hard for over the past 15 years. You abandoned your wife, your son's and your grandchildren for a trashy piece of ass! She dumped you and now you are alone and miserable. HA! Soon, you will face criminal charges and go to jail! GOOD! I hope "the boys" like your lilly white skin! I hear they don't treat wife beaters very well in prison!!!! Your day is coming very soon and you will pay!!!!!!!!!

Sometimes, its just gotta come out. If you're angry here's your chance to throw away that anger and have a good Xmas

I am proud of those of you who have expressed your rage!!!!!!! you have a right to be mad !!! you have a right to object !!! you have a right to a decent, happy life......Keep posting... get it out..... here's ;your chance....

thank you so much for posting this benjamun....
i needed a release. . .

and to everyone else who responded to this post...
thank you also for sharing...
makes me feel not so alone... i'm so angry sometimes =/

Glad your enjoying this!! I posted this because I think most of us are so angry we don't know what to do about it. I thought maybe just getting it all out is a good way to start. --- Merry Christmas to all

Dear ex,
I would love to fly an F-15 right over the top of your house and send a missile through your bedroom window... If, for some unknown reason you are still living after this, I would love nothing more than to land this plane and take a hammer to your head while slipping a grenade in your pocket and proceeding to run at frantic speed.

I just want to hear him screaming nonstop in a dark place where he can't even move. I want him to go insane.

" I forgive you,Mum,Dad,Nana,Grandad..all of you who hurt me and left me alone.I forgive you..not because I owe it to you,but because I owe it to myself.I can't carry this poison around inside of me any longer..
You Have No Power Over Me.
You took my sister,my best friend,away from me.She hung herself because she couldn't take your attacks on her body and soul anymore.I vowed at her funeral to Get You All Back..I've carried that searing hatred in MY soul all these years..But I have to forgive you all now.
Because my Sister wouldn't have wanted me to live this way..she would want me to live free of rage and hatred and violence and revenge.She would want me to enjoy the two amazingly beautiful children I have,the children she was cheated out of ever having,holding,loving.She would want me to be free of the Cross that I have carried for her for so long.
And--she loved you all.Despite the degredation and suffering you all put her through,that beautiful kid loved you all.And she would not want me to hurt you.Because,in Heaven,she clearly sees what I struggle to understand here on earth..
That You,too,are in pain.That You are not well.That You,too,were abused and tormented as children and indeed have carried Your pain,bitterness,fear,guilt and lonliness with You all Your lives.
Mum..I'll never condone the way you treated us kids,I'll never 'be okay' with not having a loving Mum in my,(and my childrens lives)now or ever..but I understand what happened to you in your life and what happened to make you the way you are now.
And I forgive you.If I never see you again,know that I never stopped loving you and I wish you had have sought help in our lifetime here on earth,but I wish you peace. When you leave this place Go In Peace.May God have mercy on your soul and have you be waiting there for me with my sister,complete,whole,restored.
Dad..I can't say I fully understand why you hated me and wanted to hurt me so badly, why you never stood up to Mum,but I forgive and release you too.I may have missed having you in my life even more than Mum..you and I have more in common..(and between you and me,although I never let on,I have always been a bit pleased that I Look Like You)..and it still hurts,Dad.Jack Thompson was on telly the other night,and he looks just like how I remember you.And sometimes a bloke walks down the street who looks like you,and it hurts.If you were well you would be proud of me.And you would have loved my children,especially my son.But I now accept that will never come to pass..I love you.I forgive you.Goodbye,Dad.
Grandad..I was your favorite as a child, and you and nana tried to protect me from my parents..but when I grew older and made terrible mistakes,you turned your back on me.You made it clear to the rest of the family that if they had anything to do with me that they would be banished as well.When I was at my lowest,all alone and fighting for my daughters life,you had your back turned to me and refused to hear my agonized pleas for help and support.
Not long before this,I had learnt about What You Did To My Mother and Aunty.
I'd learnt how My Grandad,the Boxer,Irishman,Catholic,Singer,who I had idolised and revered and feared all my life,had Molested my mother.And Aunt.
I hated you there,for a while.I blamed you for my mothers sick and twisted treatment of us.I blamed you for the suicide of my sister.
I blamed you for my not having my family,for my children not having grandparents,Aunt(dead),uncles,cousins..etc.
I blamed you for my beatings, for my mother making my dead sister wear disposable nappies under her high school uniform when she had her periods,for my brother-handsome and talented-ending up in jail for armed robbery,for my younger sisters obesity and subsequent bullemia/annorexia, for my obesity/annorexia/bullemia, for my alcoholism,my drug addiction,my drug overdoses(2 that left me in short comas)my self mutillating,my rapes,my miscarriage that saw me bury my own tiny baby in my aunts backyard while everyone was asleep,and on and on and on..right through to blaming you for my two amazing children having a mother who was sad,mad,frightened,aggressive,lonely,guilty,ashamed,resentful,insecure,regrettful,selfish,hateful,violent,self-abusing,self-hating,hopeless..
Then one day,Grandad,I prayed.
As i recited The Lords Prayer I came to "and forgive us our tresspasses as we forgive those who tresspass against us"...and could go no further.Something began to stir deep in my soul..
I have made many horrible mistakes in my lifetime.
My therapist helps me understand that I turned out the way I did,have acted the way I have,have done the things I have done,largely because of what I went through what I was younger.
I seek forgiveness from God,myself,my children and society in general:based on this premise.
And then I thought about what you told me, back when I was a child..
about how you left your home and family in Ireland at 11-12,jumped ship to England,dug graves for food and Never Went Back..Never Saw your Family Again.
I don't know what exactly happened to you..but whatever it was,It is like a Curse, that has gone on through the generation,tearing,destroying,wounding.
Well, it stops here.
My children will not carry this affliction with them,nor their children..
I forgive you.I release you, and in doing so I set myself,my children and my husband free."

I would love to hear of my boss and his shit wife crashing on the highway and dying horribly death. My parents are already dead and living in hell where they belong. I do forgive them for my own reasons but I do wish ill will on them. Just to see how it feels for them. they deserve it. They deserve it so much.

To my mother -
I am sick mother. Not physically so, but emotionally so. I am tired and cannot handle anymore of the guilt and manipulation you have put me through for these 37 years. I am fragile and you were not and are not gentle with me. And I have hated you for it and yet at the same time I still love you and want you around. Do you see me mother? Do you see how sick I am? Can you really look at me and see what it has done to me? No, you can't and I am very angry with you for it. And all I want is for you to acknowledge it all, but you won't. And even here in the post where we are venting our anger and frustration I cannot say a hurtful word to you. I cannot call you ugly names or wish evil things upon you because I am oh so sick. Do you see mother? Do you? I shouldn't even talk to you for the things you have said to me, but I will always love you mother. And I will always know that it will be more than you will ever be able to give me even though it will never be enough for you.