I'm just trapped. I'm fighting the urge not to hit my head, which I used to do growing up when I got stressed, but i stopped in college because I know it's totally crazy and just hurting myself. Family drama all the time. I try to cute them out but I'm so lonely and I have no one to talk to. they dont really care about me, they just put me down. And my sister, the favorite, whom I haven't talked to in months, just an hour ago, I got a call from my mom yelling at me telling me how dare I tell my sister that my mom said this and that about my sister. My sister is totally rewording the few things I did say, and then making up the rest. mom always believes her and doesn't even take a breath from screaming at me to tell let me explain. She kept hanging up on me. I try to tell her I never said that stuff, but as usual she just will always pick my sister over me. she said I have mental problems and woulnd't even let me defend myself. My sister used me as a tool to say what she wanted to say to my mom, by acting like I was the one who said it to her. My sister is so high and mighty because she got a self-righteous churchy husband, and she acts like it is all me causing the problems. I haven't even talked to her in months, then why does she still use me and and tell my mom I told her that my mom said this and that. Which I never did. I just can't stand this drama but i can't escape. I have no one on my side. I have no one to go too. I have no real friends, I cant' get a job, I have no family that really loves me. I'm completely alone and useless. I don't evcen know why I keep trying. everyone just belives the worst about me when otehr than having a temper sometimes i have never done anything illegal or immoral.
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