I'm just trapped. I'm fighting the urge not to hit my head, which I used to do growing up when I got stressed, but i stopped in college because I know it's totally crazy and just hurting myself. Family drama all the time. I try to cute them out but I'm so lonely and I have no one to talk to. they dont really care about me, they just put me down. And my sister, the favorite, whom I haven't talked to in months, just an hour ago, I got a call from my mom yelling at me telling me how dare I tell my sister that my mom said this and that about my sister. My sister is totally rewording the few things I did say, and then making up the rest. mom always believes her and doesn't even take a breath from screaming at me to tell let me explain. She kept hanging up on me. I try to tell her I never said that stuff, but as usual she just will always pick my sister over me. she said I have mental problems and woulnd't even let me defend myself. My sister used me as a tool to say what she wanted to say to my mom, by acting like I was the one who said it to her. My sister is so high and mighty because she got a self-righteous churchy husband, and she acts like it is all me causing the problems. I haven't even talked to her in months, then why does she still use me and and tell my mom I told her that my mom said this and that. Which I never did. I just can't stand this drama but i can't escape. I have no one on my side. I have no one to go too. I have no real friends, I cant' get a job, I have no family that really loves me. I'm completely alone and useless. I don't evcen know why I keep trying. everyone just belives the worst about me when otehr than having a temper sometimes i have never done anything illegal or immoral.
Posts You May Be Interested In
A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...
Today is my 25th birthday, to my somewhat lack of surprise I can see already no one really seems to care. I've always been the kinda person to make sure that everyone I Care about feels appreciated and knew somebody had their back. I can count 4 times this year when I Went out of my way to make sure a "friend" felt good on their birthday, especially if they got left hanging. Its early in the...