I don't have a relationship with my father. Throughout my life I have always found a man as old as my father and just fell in love with him. Acted like he was my father. Followed him around when I was young like a puppy dog. I still do it and it sometimes tends to put tension in my life. I don't and never will have a loving father. I'll never be able to look him in the eye. I will always be afraid of him. Does anyone else play these mind games?
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