Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
I saw my abuser last night. I was frightened - I thought about the last attack. He has been doing all he can to pull me back in - and I have been feeling as though I am falling for it. I have been entertaining the idea of reconciling. Giving up the struggle to stay away. I have been running. Giving up my life anyway you look at it. My house of 20years; my job; my friends in this area. I just can't seem to let go of it all.
Until last night. The fear returned so badly. Like a huge weight on my chest. Once again I am confused. I have been in this state for the last year.
I have read some discussions on forgiveness, and have tried. I have placed myself in a very tenuous position. I struggle to keep the fear down; which works so well it denies me any feeling at all. This means I cannot enjoy the sunshine when it comes. My denial is so strong.
I don't seem able to resist him.
Until last night. The fear returned so badly. Like a huge weight on my chest. Once again I am confused. I have been in this state for the last year.
I have read some discussions on forgiveness, and have tried. I have placed myself in a very tenuous position. I struggle to keep the fear down; which works so well it denies me any feeling at all. This means I cannot enjoy the sunshine when it comes. My denial is so strong.
I don't seem able to resist him.
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
He doesn't love you. If he did he wouldn't hurt you.
I know saying that hurts. But must try to stay away from him. I am struggling with that too. Tomorrow i am going to the the district attorney to file for a restraining order and no contact order.... I have to do this for my son and for me.