Today started off as a good day. I took my kids out to the park and when we got home waited on their dad to go to the beach. While i waited i set out some shorts and a towel for him since we planned on going to the beach to take a swim w/ the kids. When he got home, i had cooked dinner so when we got home we can all sit and eat, bur he wanted to eat then so i served him, as i was doing that i told him go change while i serve you and he asked me why, as if upset. I asked him aren't we going top the beach? And he said yes. I was a bit puzzled being that he had a new outfit on and his best sneakers. I asked with your new clothes on? And he caught an attitude. He changed. While he was eating he seemed fine , we even spoke a bit , nothing major just small talk. I didn't think he would be so upset over my question. ( changing clothes ). He then went in the bathroom and i called him , he answered me WHAT ! As if upset. So i just ignored it and left it alone. He comes out the bathroom and says What! I said nevermind, it's nothing. And he started yelling, I'm a grown man , you don't have to be asking me about what i'm going to wear, i wear whatever i want bla bla bla. I was like excuse me , i never asked you what were you wearing , i assumed since we were planning on going swimming you would change. I meant nothing wrong by it. Anyhow, i told him i wasn;t going to argue and left to wait for him in the car with the kids. At the beach he asked if i was going to get in and i said no. After a while he came to get me and asked me to get in w/ them , i did. I wanted to make the best out of that moment since my kids were also there. I had a pair of capri sweats and a tank top, while they had swimming gear. I bought some shorts but he says they would make me look like a slut so i didnt wear them. You know, i feel so hurt inside, i have come along way, i "never' felt good about myself until recently , i have gained some weigh and i feel better about myself, i only weight 98 lbs at 5'4, about a year and a half ago. I wouldn't wear short sleeve shirts nor shorts always covered up because i felt i was too bony. Today, i have a good self esteem and i feel he is trying to make me feel as i once did. He says i dress to get attention and because i'm a lasivious slut. The truth is i dont even show cleavage, barely wear shorts if not around the house. My jeans are tighter on me now because i have gained weigh and who wants to dress a size 13 when a 7/8. Not I. I carry myself well and no matter where i go everyone respects me. I do not flirt w/ any other man for i have my own, whom i truly love considering the circumstances. I dont know if he is worried that i would find someone who will value me a bit more or if he is afraid that now that i feel better about myself i would let loose and become something he is so afraid i'll become. I would never lower my standards and my moral values. If i wanted someone else i wouldnt be with him. Anyhow, not long ago he told me i needed to learn as if i were a kid, i asked what he was talking about and he started bringing up the questioning him about his clothes etc. He said i denied everything and i clearified to him that i wouldn't admit to something that wasn't true about me. He said i wouldnt because in my head i was right , that i was wrong but i just didnt comprehend it. He always tries to undermine my inteligence because he is a lot smarter in some aspects of life. He mentioned he liked playing baseball with the kids and the kids also enjoyed it but that the only thing they didnt like was that he screamed to much at them when they didnt play right but that thats the way they would learn. I disagreed with him and told him that they were other ways of dealing with the situation other than
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