My ex has finally agreed to leave me alone. I should be happy and over the moon and I am so completely and utterly depressed. I don't want to go back, it is more that I feel like a complete loser, that he goes happily on his way as though I never existed and I am left to pick up the pieces again. I have spent the last 2 days in bed. I feel so completely alone. I don't feel as though I can talk to mum considering it has been 6 weeks and I should be over it and I am so not. I am worse now than when I first left. It is supposed to get easier and I am finding it so hard. I can't stop crying and am so angry, at him, and at me that I am the one that left and I am the one that is losing it. I don't know what is normal or what I am supposed to do. I wish the pain would stop.
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