I have been living with my Nigerian boyfriend for 2 years. I move from California to the east coast with him... with the hope of love and committment which we discussed before I agreed to move. The first year was great, he was attentive, loving, caring, happy to have me with him, missed me when I was gone. Although looking back now, I see that right from the beginning, he was abusive. We would get in arguments and his anger would get a hold of him and he would say mean things and then turn around and apologize. It did not happen often. I became very attached to hime and him to me. We only knew each other and really depended on one another. Then we moved to NYC and little by little he distanced himself, meeting other women but not taking action. His fear of intamacy and committment, supposedly. Took me to Africa with him to meet his family they all loved me. This last year has gotten worse and worse, with verbal abuse, name calling, threatiening to leave and when I agree, he backs off and apologizes. He has just moved out, saying he just needs some space, his feelings for me have not changed, he still thinks of us as partners. There is just too much to go into here...but I feel so all alone. I am here living on the east coast, no family, just now making friends.. he was my family. It is so hard to tell me I do not want to continue this relationship, I feel it and cannot say it. I am so stuck. I don't know what to do next.
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