He just left me. He said I was trying to act like God. I feel so empty inside. We were recently in bed and he rolled over to kiss me and he left like a skeleton. I started crying and asked him to stop. He used to be so healthy and in good shape. He just stopped eating and caring about the way he looked. Im just not attracted to him anymore. His lack for a healthy life is really pushing me away. I want him to live a long life and be able to see him grandkids grow up. I have cried, yelled, wrote letter and for the last year he has lost his drive for life and health. He is 128 lbs. He was not like that when we feel in love. Am I a terrible person for not being attracted to him anymore? Should I love him for who he is? Its just I am such a health nut and I care about living a long time. This is a huge goal! I asked him the other day what can I do to help him get healthy again? He said stock the fridges with good food and drag him to the gym. I made him this awesome lunch that took me a good hour to make and he came home that evening, gave me a high five and said I ate the whole thing! Today, 3 days later, I found the food in his fridge at work. He lied to me! That drives me crazy!! He tells these lies all the time. He recently told me that this girl he works with was an older lady and married. Turns out she is this gorgeous blond and very single. I have had a boyfriend cheat on me with my best friend, roommate and 15 year old girls. I have a trust issue and he is not helping. Im scared!! How many things is he getting away with. Im to the point where Im telling myself I just dont care if he find someone else cause that way it wont hurt as much when he does. Im losing my mind... how do I keep myself from going insane??
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