Since I'm not good enough for my own father, and being in the wrong body, what's the point really? No one ever speaks of this; but i'm seriously considering it. I'm sorry if i stike a nerve to anyone; but this is only me and how i feel, not anyone else. It's not like i'm getting anywhere from going to college or from being a veteran, so piss on it. I'm sooo sick of fighting everyday just to get out of bed muchles just to smile at people i don't even know; why do we have to do that? My arms and legs and neck are all scared up from cutting myself; why can't i just push that stupid knife a lil deeper; ya know why...i don't think i hae the gut to do it that way. However, as scared as i am of getting committed again, i do have a backstage plan that i hold deep inside and it always is in my thoughts when i cut. I can't get rid of these feelings? WHY?
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