For the past year I have been trying to get him to see and understand how serious I am about this being over. I think I have finally accepted that he nor our relationship will ever change so I am now planning to take the necessary steps to get out. I am looking for a place to move and just walking away with my kids...from him and the home we share. I have tried to get him to leave, tried to get him to talk about us to see if I could get through to him. Nothing I have tried has worked...it always ends up that I am to blame and I am the one who needs to change and do more with him never willing to even try to understand my feelings. I have always gotten sucked back into the honeymoon phase but cannot let that happen anymore. My question is this....how do I stay strong enough to do what I need to do when he tries to manipulate me into staying? I already see it happening in subtle ways and am beginning to feel a bit of guilt. I have to stay focused. Right now I focus on where my mind was 1,3,5 years ago realizing that I felt the same way back then and reminding myself of the reasons for leaving. I fear I won't be strong enough even though my mind is made up. Any advice you can give is greatly appreciated.
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