I was molested as a child, for 6 years by my step brother. I never had any help with it, I was to embarrassed. Now I'm 22 in a relationship, with a wonderful patient man, who's history was about as bad as mine. but here recently, when he touches me, I just want to pull away, and push him as far away as I possibly can, when we go to have sex, suddenly I'll lose interest and don't want to be anywhere around him 'in the mood'. I cry myself to sleep most nights, because I feel unwanted and not worth anything. He trys to comfort me but, it just makes it worse, when I get in one of those 'episodes' I don't want any man around me, or even touch me. When this happens, he reads the signs and stays a safe distance, but still close. I don't know what to do, I don't want him to think it's him and I don't know how to talk to him when I don't really know whats going on!
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