okay, so my husband does certain things that make me feel like crap, but i can't find a way to explain it. like, the other day i didn't make supper. i made myself some eggs while my husband was out with my oldest child. when they got back i got yelled at for "leaving them hanging". i said that i could remember growing up and my mom didn't make supper everynight-sometimes we just made a sandwich or ate leftovers. he said, "well this family is supposed to look out for eachother". i was so mad. then later that night when we talked about how i can't feel love from him or a real connection, he said "when you look nice for me or cook and fix the house up that tells me that you love me..then i want to be lovey too." is that not crazy! i feel like he only loves me for what i do, not who i am! is that seriously how relationships go? he makes me feel like i'm just a selfish and inconsiderate. i stay home with a toddler and an infant, he's always making me feel like crap about money. i had credit card debt and never heard the end of it, but now that its paid off, all i hear about are MY medical bills and how that is screwing us over. i can't do anything right!
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