Well here I am...a month and a half later. Reality has set in as I said and I'm just grieving the hurt and pain that I suffered over the past few years. I know that things will get better for me in time but I am just thinking of how he stayed out all night, smoked weed, financially abused me and now he's out enjoying his freedom. Do you guys know that I'm not even bitter against him? With my first husband I wanted him to get karma like nobody's business. With this one--I'm just hurt and want to heal. I feel hopeless like no guy will ever want me, I'll never get back in shape again, and that I just won't be happy. It's sad that we will settle for a piece of man rather than none. One thing that's giving me something to look forward to is that I'll be coming into some money in a few months and will be able to look for a new house, car, etc. I'm not sure if I'll stay where we are or move back to my hometown. I feel that will help ease some of my pain. So taking it moment by moment but the tears have come.
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