Does anyone else have this problem? When my husband (who I am seperated from) is being ugly I can get angry and and so sure of what I am doing. But when he is being reasonable and kind I feel guilty like I am making it all up and he is not such a bad guy after all. I find myself doubting and thinking I am making a mountain out of a molehill. He is very reasonable and seems like he really cares. He tells me I am his best friend and how he wants to reconcile, but if I am not happy then he will go through with the divorce because he wants me to be happy. I want so much for him to really care and love for me. His words sound great, but his actions are eventually showing the real him. I wonder does he realize his problem? I don\'t think so because he will not admit that he has done anything wrong. I am the one who left. He has been so verbally abusive to me and the kids in the past, hurting us so deeply, but after awhile you forget. How do I not let myself be sucked into these seemingly honest pleas for us to get back together when I know that I know that nothing has really changed? Tamra
Posts You May Be Interested In
I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
I gave my 2 week notice last Friday 13th. Now to join you fine people in a life of leisure and nothing else to do but to look out for myself....is it just me or does that sound pretty boring? My goal was to live to retire and I guess having to take early retirement because of health reasons wasn't exactly the way I had planned things. I just can't stay in that building that is reeking mildew...