Things can go quite suddenly from ok to bad. I could feel relaxed and good and it seems out of nowhere, he will get verbally abusive and sneering. He might have already been in a bad mood. I know I don't cause the abuse in any way - he is responsible for his own attitude and behaviour, however I find it hard to expel the bad feelings. I do practice detachment and I will address an issue if I need to altough it never leads to anything being resolved. My question is: how do you handle the "bad" feelings in this kind of situation. I know I don't deserve this but the childhood thoughts and feelings come dancing back that tell me I am not good enough and even "bad". I understand it all logicaly it is just those feelings when they rise up. I can get down and discouraged. I plan to leave him when I have more money, but in the meantime as I build myself up, have you any suggestions that might help or can you share how you have dealt with this stuff. It can knock me off balance for awhile. Thanks in advance.
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