hello. ive been in this support group for about a month now...and although i finally feel like i have an outlet, and great supporters here, i dont feel like im getting any better. it helps a little reading other peoples pages and topics, but sometimes it makes it worse knowing that SO many other people are hurting the way i do. i dont feel like im getting any better,yet im doing EVERYTHING i can to get better: support groups, several new self help books, going out with new friends, not taking his phone calls, blocking his emails, and writing about it. but i still feel extreme depression and rage, still miss him, still have obsessive thoughts about him, still have flashbacks. when am i suppose to feel better? am i feeling sorry for myself? when are this f*cked up feeling of depression, anger, guilt, shame, self pity, denial, isolation and STUPIDITY going to fade??? its been 6 months since the break up...its not fair, he\'s off being happy, moving on, doing his own thing while i sit here missing him? i should HATE him and every memory of him!! i dont expect anyone to respond with an answer, cuz i know time will heal all wounds...im just getting frusterated with myself i guess. im bored with these thoughts of him, he has moved on! when\'s it MY turn!!!
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