Today i'm not feeling so well. I never thought i would experience the feeling of being scared again, i always said i would never allow any men to make me feel this way. I guess i was wrong. Me and my man have been through a lot, and things eventually got a lot better, has made drastic changes and i admire that about him. But, lately when he gets upset he lashes out and says hurtful things to me, today, he sat by me to discuss some financial issues and when i rolled my eyes and said, " i know " ... he lashed out and punched the wall. He also told me we couldn't communicate and i agree with him, how can there be communication when the moment something goes wrong , or i make a comment, face expression, he lashes out, makes me feel like i'm dumb or threatens to make me eat my teeth if i don't get out of his face? This just recently started again, he has been great to me up til now. I love him very much but i won't continue taking this from him, i know i'm far from perfect, it's impossible for me never to have a bad day, or get aggravated, i'm only human, i, however, never lash out at him, threaten him nor start punching walls and making him feel as he does me. I deal with it , maybe not the best way but i don't deal with it w/ violence or abuse towards him. I am so sad right now, dissapointed and scared, i will not continue getting treated this way. I am good to my man, i will never hurt him intentionally and i am trying all i can to be the family i always yearned in being. Not being scared that whenever we cant agree on something or say something he doesn't like he lashes out and treats me as he once did long ago. He needs to get help, and so do i, is the only way it will workout , other than that i want no part of it. Not this time....
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