when i was little my dad use to be the crap out of me. he stoped but i still think about it. he only hit my mom once in a while. but he hit me the most. even though he is dead i still hate him. I keep on wondering when am i going to be able to get close to a guy because i am so afraid that he is going to turn abusive on me. sometime my dad had no reason for hurting me. But most of the time i did ask for it wheather it be fighting with my brother. not having my room clean doing bad in school or not going to sleep on time. i just could not stay out of his way. things were really bad when he was drinking. will i ever be able to trust men and not be afraid of them this sucks!!!
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