It has been a while, but I am back (under a new name). I was a DS member for a couple of months and then my husband found me and read EVERYTHING that I had written about him and about how I felt about it. I dont know if it was a good thing or a bad thing. He approached me as soon as he read everythinghe cried and cried. I didnt know what to do. I told him flat out that we either needed to end our marriage now or start counseling. He has gone to 1 appointment with me and said he wont go back until I get help for the issues I am holding onto and not letting go. He says once I let go of the past abuse then we can work on our marriage. He has been going to group therapy for almost a year now and he claims he is 60% better. I do see a substantial change in him, but it is not gone completely or even enough for me and that is what scares me the most.will the demon come back and if so how bad? I ended up seeing a new counselor and in the first appointment alone she advised that I show signs of PTSD and that I should continue therapy. She asked what I wanted out of life and I said I want to live every day free of anxiety and fear of what he could do or what he might say. I missed all the support that I was receiving from everyone here and I wanted to come back, even though he told me dont you dare go back on that site to the hags that just want to bash me. The way I look at it is the truth hurts and he must be afraid that I will find the strength to fulfill his biggest fear of me leaving. I missed you all and to my friends I had, I am sorry that I abruptly disappeared and I will figure a way to let you know who I was.
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