I left my husband of 15 years almost a year ago and am in counseling for domestic violence. I am also an alcoholic. This past year has been the hardest one in my whole life. I can't seem to take of myself or my children. I have a good job and on the outside look like a regular upstanding citizen, but behind closed doors I am a total mess! I have been controlling my drinking to a degree but once I get a handle on one thing something else falls and I can't seem to catch a break. I end up sleeping with random guys, already got into another abusive relationship. I am addicted to everything I touch especially the internet right now. I can't pay my bills and I cannot get organized to save my life. Whats hard is no one knows everything. They all think I am doing "so well" and have come "so far". I just can't handle everything anymore. Please just help me care about myself. I am so depressed!!!!And I can't stop these bad behaviors!
Posts You May Be Interested In
I miss traveling with my husband. Has anyone found a specific site regarding cruising for widow/widowers or any sightseeing trips. Not interested in being with couples and kids,,,I realize a cruise ship will have a portion size of families and couples, but perhaps they also put together a part of the cruise ship for groups of widows/widowers????
A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...