I left my husband of 15 years almost a year ago and am in counseling for domestic violence. I am also an alcoholic. This past year has been the hardest one in my whole life. I can't seem to take of myself or my children. I have a good job and on the outside look like a regular upstanding citizen, but behind closed doors I am a total mess! I have been controlling my drinking to a degree but once I get a handle on one thing something else falls and I can't seem to catch a break. I end up sleeping with random guys, already got into another abusive relationship. I am addicted to everything I touch especially the internet right now. I can't pay my bills and I cannot get organized to save my life. Whats hard is no one knows everything. They all think I am doing "so well" and have come "so far". I just can't handle everything anymore. Please just help me care about myself. I am so depressed!!!!And I can't stop these bad behaviors!
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