the abuse started when i was four and has continued to this day.my father has been doing for years and this hole that he has been diging for me is 16 ft deep and with only inches to breath. i don't sleep but a few hours every night.hje has taken my thought, freedom, my life but he will not take the day i die. that is for me to decided. the pressure has numb through out the years because the more the abuse the less you have to learn about the abuser and the more you numb things about. i can't cry or make a sound or he will make it more like hell than it already is.he has broken 11 of my bones, 2concussions, and trillion of bruises through out my body. i feel like a building is on top of me and a new story to the building is added everyday making it harder and harder to breath and live. i get axiety attacks all the time.i have no friend and no one to talk to. everday is a new adventure with my father it all depends on how much alchol he has had what his mood is and what i did wrongi his mind.he has done so many horrifing things and i can't even menion them b/c they hurt and hit a raw nerve to bad. how do i change my life, break free,is it truly my fault, or is my time up and i need to make the first move before he does it for me... hurting me to a point of death? it has been the only thing i have known so what is the right thing to do
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