my "husband," Kelly, once again has gone back to his violent, verbal/emotional abuse...I think it's called abuse...after a sickening consultation at surgeon's office, which, his attitude toward me as a result of the cost of this surgery, he was an absolute inhumane pseudo human being, let alone a man and my husband. The Staff actually phoned me the next day to see if I was "okay." So, after crying in the MD's office, we got into the truck, I asked him why he had to be so insensitive and stone faced-cruel...he then literally turned on me, said he was tired of me being sick. He then peeled out of the parking lot, I started to cry even more, quitely, of course as I did not want to rock this proverbial boat of shame. Kelly then screamed at me to buckle up, I had forgotten to, I didnt do it quick enough, so, with the knowlegdge I become almost panciky if he drives fast, too close to the car in front of us, etc, as a result of the critical car wreck I was in 4 years ago, he taunted me with him veering in and out of each highway lane, going 65-75MPH. I asked him to "please stop" and to let me out if he was going to drive this way, he said "Oh no, Juleigh, you'd better buckle the fu-- up, we're gonna crash! You big Baby!" I then just froze emotionally, I have never done this before, never. He continued to scream at me, "You make me sick, I'm sick of you being so fuc---- sensitve, grow the fu-- up!"...I turned to look out the window of my passenger door, he then swerved into the other lane so fast that my head knocked against my wondow...I said "ouch!" I broke my neck in my accdent and have a plate in my neck and have been having ongoing surgeries to help with chronic pain...I'll shorten this up - just as fast as he turned violent, he started to apologize by saying he was sorry, stupid, couldnt believe he did this, tried to touch me, hold my hand, etc...I eventually became less afraid of him because he drove to Eye Mart to get my glasses, but I absolutely could NOT stop crying - again, I have never become so afraid of him with his verbal or emotional abuse, never...I do believe I have had enough of this. While this was going on, I was praying the Lord would take me away, if not, I would do it myself?!?! I thought that way because I feel like I have NO way out...oh my gosh, writing this over again is like another bucket of cold water thrown on me...
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