I lived with my ex for two years, moved out (to a town 100 miles away) during which time we still saw each other but also saw other people. Then after a year of that I wanted to move back in with him. He said he was not ready to settle down with just one person again but I could move back in if I agreed to let him see other girls when he wanted to. I KNOW - STUPID ME - I agreed. I was willing to accept anything to be with him again. So for about 6 years he periodically went out with other girls. If I said anything about how it hurt me he would remind me that I had agreed to it and told me if I didn't like it I could leave. But instead of leave I just saw it as a challenge to be more perfect myself so he would not want to be with other women - so he would want only me. Consequently I never trusted him and my self- esteem got lower and lower and I hid my feelings more and more. Any comments??
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