I just broke-up with my boyfriend of 1 year. I am so sad and feel so empty without him. When I first met him, he was the life of the party. Attractive, funny, and so nice and perfect. I was not looking for a relationship at the time, so he really had to win me over and worked for me. Once he "had" me, I started to see a side of him I hadn't. The first time was on the phone when i interupted him and he yelled at me. It scared me and I told him I had to go. He called about 20 minutes later and apoligized. I accepted, but looking back I should have told him to never talk to me like that again. The next episodes always seemed to happen when he was drinking. He is 10 years older than me and gets so wasted. We were at his friends and he fell down the stairs and knocked a hole in their wall. He also lost his wallet. The next day when he couldn't find his wallet, he freaked out and punched a hole in my wall and was screaming so loud my dog was shaking. Whenever he is coming down from drinking, his temper is pretty bad. He has pushed me before when drunk b/c I tried to take his drink away. He had screamed, Shut the F UP in my face many times drunk. He would say, Well she wasn't listening. Besides that, there are other little things. He calls me his bitch, even though I have asked him not too. This has only been in private though. He also calls the town I grew up in white trash, even though it's not, but to make me mad. Whenever we fight or argue, it could be something simple, but he gets SO mad and ignores me for hours or days. Then I will get a text message or he will IM me on FB. My response is, Are we broken up or not? He always says No, it was just a fight. I hate that I give him that control. This time, I left him. I said some harsh things to him that I feel terrible about. He changed his FB to single and deleted me and all my friends, yet left pic's of us up (I know b/c I am tagged). Part of me feels guilty and bad for what I said to him and I also feel so empty without him. Has anyone dealt with this type of person? I assume it is over for good and if he does contact me, I know I need time to think.
I appreciate any feedback.
I appreciate any feedback.
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