
Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.

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In all my years I never have hated a single person. I have been discouraged, disappointed and maybe felt bad for disliking someone but never a pure hatred.
I now feel a hate for my abuser. A hate like none I have ever known. I was emotionally, psychologically and physically abused. I was cheated on, lied to and bullied througout my marriage.
I hate him due to knowing the fact that I was in a previously battered relationship and him being a cop. He portrayed himself as a nice guy who just never met the right woman and then spent the next four years trying to convince me that he knew how I should act, think and feel. How I should live, what I should believe in and what I was supposed to be.
I am still in the midst of it as there is a protection order against him. Some say I am getting paranoid but it is so hard not knowing what he is thinking or where he is. Is he watching me? Is he going to come after me? Is he going to get me when I least expect it? I keep telling myself not to be paranoid. Then just like when I was married everytime I think it is safe something happens around the house or car that makes me believe he is not that far away and will do me harm.
I hate living like this and so wish that it was a year from now. A time where I can feel safe again. A time where I can have my life back and not be afraid it won't be there for me.
I hate everything he stands for and how he can have no empathy, no moral conscience and no remorse for what he did. I have now become the enemy in his eyes and this scares me. His concern has always been about property and money and now I am the one standing in the way of him getting everything. He doesn't think I should get anything due to having him removed and ending the marriage. I feel this intense hatred due to just wanting to make all of it go away and return to the life I had before I met him. A life of optimism. A life with truth and honesty. A life with no violence or abuse. A life with real love in it and no control. A life that I can be proud of. It took me 12 years to reach that point after being a battered wife and yet here I stand having to go through it again.
Hatred isn't healthy I know but it seems to be better than the fear I have been living with for two months. Is this a phase that will go away?
I now feel a hate for my abuser. A hate like none I have ever known. I was emotionally, psychologically and physically abused. I was cheated on, lied to and bullied througout my marriage.
I hate him due to knowing the fact that I was in a previously battered relationship and him being a cop. He portrayed himself as a nice guy who just never met the right woman and then spent the next four years trying to convince me that he knew how I should act, think and feel. How I should live, what I should believe in and what I was supposed to be.
I am still in the midst of it as there is a protection order against him. Some say I am getting paranoid but it is so hard not knowing what he is thinking or where he is. Is he watching me? Is he going to come after me? Is he going to get me when I least expect it? I keep telling myself not to be paranoid. Then just like when I was married everytime I think it is safe something happens around the house or car that makes me believe he is not that far away and will do me harm.
I hate living like this and so wish that it was a year from now. A time where I can feel safe again. A time where I can have my life back and not be afraid it won't be there for me.
I hate everything he stands for and how he can have no empathy, no moral conscience and no remorse for what he did. I have now become the enemy in his eyes and this scares me. His concern has always been about property and money and now I am the one standing in the way of him getting everything. He doesn't think I should get anything due to having him removed and ending the marriage. I feel this intense hatred due to just wanting to make all of it go away and return to the life I had before I met him. A life of optimism. A life with truth and honesty. A life with no violence or abuse. A life with real love in it and no control. A life that I can be proud of. It took me 12 years to reach that point after being a battered wife and yet here I stand having to go through it again.
Hatred isn't healthy I know but it seems to be better than the fear I have been living with for two months. Is this a phase that will go away?
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