I have only been out of my relationship for a month and a half and im trying to figure out why the hell i stayed for so long. I feel about 50 percent of the time was good. And that 50 percent would be me following everything he said, doing every thing he wanted, and taking his crap and not sticking up for myself to stop from starting a fight. When i look back there was about 289578923759869853 opportunities that i know most people would be like woah that enough. Even before we started dating he treated me like crap but i still decided to get into a relationship with him. Even once the physical abuse started i still couldn't walk away. I love him so i stayed. But it makes me mad that i loved him and i still feel like i love him . The way i treated him was polar opposite to how he treated me. Probably because i am a giver and he is a taker and a user. How could i love someone that would do that to me? How could someone who claimed the felt the same way do that to me? All i really want to know is why? I feel i felt partly because i didnt think i deserved better i stayed and because i knew that if i left him i would be alone and sad. I feel like hearing people explain of why they feel they stayed will help a lot of us and help others who havent totally figured it out some insight to our subconscious reasons for staying.
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