Of course i had to listen to a message from my ex screaming how i broke my marriage vows. How I never tried to work it out with him, that i ran away and never stayed to try and go to counseling and make our marriage work. That i broke his trust that i would never leave him and he doesn't even know the person i am now. In fact this person is not the person that he loves. That i took our vows lightly and gave up. So now i feel like complete crap because i start to question myself all over again. I think tonight he really meant that he is done. So why do i feel so bad? He was the abuser and i feel like crap. He said some of the most hurtful things, that i don't have core and if i came back he would think any little thing would send me out the door. I really can't take any more of this agony he brings into my head. Why am i feeling bad, i must be sick in the head? I am so close to the edge right now i feel like i can't do this any more. I do know i will have to change my number or block his cause this is too much for me to take.
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