i was sexually abused as a child by my two older cousins. but i recently met this guy im crazy about and i told him i was physically abused. but i wasnt.. i wasnt hit by a ex boyfriend. and when i told my therapist she said that i should stop loathing myself and that i was telling lie because it is PARTLY true. i was physically abused, but in a sexual way. and that because of past self inflicted pain that it could come from that. but it doesnt excuse what i have done! and i dont want to tell this new guy that i lied to him because i never lie and that is why im so pissed on myself because i can imagine how angry i would be if someone i trusted lied to me with something so serious. im so angry with myself. why am i doing this to myself?!!!!!! i dont want to lose him. please anyone.. help me.. please :'(
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