I don't know how to make it stop. I do know I'm stronger. I've let my husband abuse me for years! I am no said and I realize in what I have done, I hurt myself more. To escape my life I had an affair with the same type of abusive man. I did go for help once and the therapist was amazed that I would let anyone hurt me the way I let people hurt me. I just wanted someone to love me and treat me nice. The man I met treated me nice until he got what he wanted. He used me. He would see me and then ignore me, My husband will yell and scream. Make me feel like crap and then blames me. He changes it around and says it's my fault. I cause him to abuse me and that I deserve it. I can't stand him or the man I had the affair with. I know I was wrong, but my husband hurt me for years! I let people walk all over me and I'm sick of it. I need to go into therapy and get the help I need. Sorry, but my husband hit me again tonight and I'm really upset. I am proud that I hit him back. I'm sick of him. I just need the strength to get help!!!
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