So, I did it again. Went down the crazy path, he called me on Sunday after a week of not hearing from him and begged me to come over. He told me he missed me, he loved me, he was reaching out to me, he really wanted to be with me, while emphasizing (no strings, no commitment), he has moved on after all. Every part of my being new it was wrong, but I went. He got what he wanted, then his demeanor changed, he only called because he was lonely, but he could have called anyone and I was the one he wanted to be with. I asked him about the new woman, I assumed he had been dumped, surely she saw through him already, no he said, quite the contrary, he just didnt know what steps to take at this point. So, I left the next morning, cried on the way home, felt like crap about myself, knew I was wrong for going when he called, false hopes again of working this out. I sent him an email later that day and asked him what last night was about. His response he called me and said, I thought you wanted the same thing I did, I was just lonely, I could have called anyone, I called you. I wont call you again if it bothers you that much. Talk to you later click. Why cant I remember why I divorced this man and realize that what he is doing now is for revenge, for divorcing him. He hasnt changed, at all. He still drinks, he is still completely selfish, takes what he wants, gives nothing in return. I know now that I need to not answer the phone if he calls, this is the second drunk, lonely call I have gotten. What he is doing to me is crappy, but wow, his life must be so wonderful now that he has moved on.
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