As you all know I cut contact with my abusive, I guess xbf. I don't know because he still hasn't got any of his stuff that I know of. He has been gone now 3 weeks. I was missing him today, and he had tried contacting me 2x earlier this week and I did not respond. I just got an email at work from him and he is trying to be really nice to see if I need help with paying the pet sitter when I am gone over Thanksgiving. I am not going to respond. But I am having such a hard time not responding. I just know he will be hateful and mean and I can't take it anymore. It hurts way too much to continue. People always tell me each time I don't respond I will get stronger but today I do not feel strong. I feel like crying. I hate going through this, I just want a normal life, like everyone around me at work seems to have. They have spouses, they travel and do things together, and always talk about the fun they have. Then there is me, sitting here like a nobody, because my boyfriend would only take me to dinner, never on any trips or anything. The only trip he has ever taken me on is a guilt trip over the fact that I am not good enough for him. I just want to cry. I wish I had never met this person.
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