I don't know what to do anymore. I am so tired of being yelled at being abused that sometimes I feel like my only way out is either jail, because I will be in a locked room that he can't get to, or death. I live with an abusive man and work for an abusive boss. I have been living with this nightmare for going on three years now. He always seems to get worse when he knows there are people around. He didn't use to be that way when he was being abusive and someone came around he would stop. But now he gets worse when someone is near. He cuts me down real harshly, hits me, yells, stalks, and I could go on and on. My boss always yells at me also. I am not allowed to go out of the building when he is there. If I am outside when he comes he tells me to go inside where I belong. Then he expects me to sit in a chair for the whole 12 hours. I am starting to have back problems. He has slapped my hand until I dropped the piece of bread I was eating. Then whenever my boyfriend and get into fights the boss will give him "rewards" like money or his own room here at the hotel where we work. My boyfriend doesn't have to work but still gets a paycheck. I caught him talking to the tenants to lie for him, to the police, that I held a knife to his throat when I threatened him that I was going to call the police. The boss said I was not allowed to call the police because it will make his hotel look bad. When I am alone I still here my name being called. I feel like I am going crazy. I am not a bad person but he makes me feel like I have to convince everyone that I am not bad. I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle.
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