I'm really confused i just don't understand what i did wrong in the first place and why my sister did what she did. When i was 7 1/2 my sister would have been just 12, she started to really beat me up and she made me do things i didn't want to do. She would constantly put me down and make me feel worthless and that my mum and dad didn't really want me. It gradually got worse over the next five years until she ran away from home to be with some lad. I remember when she used to babysit me she would literally pin me to the floor and kick and punch me till i was screaming. She hated me and i don't know what i did. I just feel so low. My parents didn't even notice. I was naturally clumbsy so if i told my mum i fell down the stairs or i walked into something she would believe it. But even though i was really down she didn't notice. I just don't know whether it was really abuse or not or it was just sort of like well normal i suppose. I don't understand why she suddenly started hurting me like she did. The worst thing is she attacked my mum on several occasions and her and my dad were constantly fighting and my mum and dad still couldn't make the link between my sisters violence and my bruises and cuts. My mum sort of knows something but she doesn't take it seriously and just degrades the entire thing. I don't know what to do. My sister lives with us know, so does her daughter, and i just feel so uneasy around her and i don't want to live their any more but i know i can't make it on my own. I am just lost and confused and don't understand what happened to me and what is going on in my head now. I just don't know what to do.
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