the other night i was talking with my kids like i try to do every night when he lets me. i was talkng with my daughter about what she did during the day. i asked her if she went to her grandma's house. she said no. i said oh was katie (her cousin) there she said no. so the only thing her dad heard was no three times. he grabbed her phone and said i cant talk with my kids when they are with him. i told him i will call my kids whenever i want (which is usually between 7-8 pm) and he cant stop me. he said yes i can. i told him he cant. then the threat came. he said if i dont leave my kids alone when they are with him i will be sorry. i said what are you going to do kill me because that is the only way i wont call my kids everynight. he said well if that is what it takes.

he is finishing up his probation for domestic violence against me. he was arrested june 4, 2006. he pled guilty in december of 2006. he hasnt learned.

i feel like someone has ripped me open instide. i hate to have to do this all over again. the last time nobody in the comunity believed me, well very few people did. cuz he is a good ol boy and can do no wrong. i was the one who abused him, according to him.

i feel bad that my kids are put in the middle of all this again. the last time one of his girlfriend's called DHS on me and i dont want that again. nothing happened but still it was bad enough.

i am going to talk with the county attorney tomarrow, just to see what can be done. i just cant live looking over my shoulder everytime i leave my house to go to the store, school, or work. it is getting to the point i dont even feel safe in my own home.

i need some support. it is just a bad night