I filed for divorce last August, it would have been final this past February, I stopped the divorce in November. After he got served with the divorce papers he became the sweetest man, he listened and wanted to know just what he had done that had pushed me to this point, he seemed genuinely sorry. I felt bad for him, I felt bad that I had hurt him so badly. I thought he had changed, he did for a while, and I thought that our counseling together was going to make things better. In November after I stopped the divorce, he started to try to convince me that there was something wrong with me. I have clinical depression, fibromyalgia, chronic pain, and other chronic conditions that cause the symptoms of forgetfulness, and anxiety, and depression. This is not news. He has since that time slowly started the emotional abuse again, and just recently called me a name, and is reprimanding me as though I was his child. The unhappiness in our marriage is my fault because I do not communicate effectively with him, and I do not show him enough attention, affection or love. He knows I am unhappy, and asks regularly if I am going to file for divorce, to which I say no because I can not deal with how he handled it when I told him I was thinking about it. I want to get out of this marriage, but I can not seem to get myself to go to my lawyer's office and file again. I just can't seem to find the courage.
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