For 6 years I was with my sybx husband who was physically abusive and emotionally abusive. All I wanted was to be loved and cherished. I always give my heart to those in my life. I have so much love inside sometimes it hurts. Well for the past 2 years I have been seeing a great man. He has no idea about everything I have went through. The fear, the feeling of not being worthy, the saddness and everything else I experienced when with my ex. So I am a little needy. I thought I found someone who loved me. I was comfortable with him and wanted to be affectionate (Because that is something I have never felt). It broke my heart that he says I stress him out. That is the last thing I wanted. We had a fight today, and may be broken up. He is finishing his degree and I understand he is busy with homework. Last night he hinted at me not staying the night since he would be busy today. He ends up wanting me to stay. After breakfast I was leaving since I knew he would be busy. He makes it seem like he can't do anything on Sundays and I get upset but tell him I undedrstand. I got home and he calls me to go to his mothers house for the game. I was like, WTF? All of a sudden he can go do something besides just homework. He jumps for his family all the time and I am on the back burner. I became upset and went to do my own thing. He said I was too needy. Am I wrong for being needy? I give him space all the time. During the week we are so busy with our kids and make plans when we are both free. Sometimes I feel like needing extra love, reassurance. Now I feel like crap. I just want to be cared for and loved and it hurts so much to be let down by the one man I have completely let my gaurd down with. I wish he knew how I felt inside when in my last relationship, but he never will truly know. I feel unwanted and so unloved right now.
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