I don't know what to do...i finally broke up with my boyfriend after 3 years of abuse but now he won't leave me alone and the real problem is I kind of don't want him to...every time we talk and I tell him i won't see him he verbally abuses me again telling me what an idiot i am or how immature i am or how i'm just a slut and a liar...he's also been getting furious wth me for reconnecting wth my old friends (the one's he forced me to stop seeing duriing our relationship) and telling me how disgusting i am for wasting my time on them instead of spending it on him...I know how wrong and sick and unhealthy everything he says is and I want him to stop but every time he threatens to never call again or get out of my life for good I feel horrible and sick and desperate...I tell him how badly he is hurting me and allow him to tell me how everything that is happening is all my fault. I won't get back together with hiim but it's like I can't save myself from the abuse, I feel like maybe I'm addicted to it. I know I don't deserve it but I'm scared to let him go completley , I still don't want him to love someone else...I don't know what's wrong with me, why can't i just cut the strings? How do I get away from him, why do I continue to allow him to abuse me when we aren't even together anymore?
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