Today my husband and I had a horrendous fight. We said so many mean things...At one point I smaked him. I am the most horrible person! I was abused physically and emotionally by my parents for most of my life and now I've turned on my husband. The abused became the abuser. It was just once and I'll NEVER do it again, but I'm just devistated that it happened at all. After I broke a glass and contemplated cutting my wrists. I just don't know what to do. I am in counciling, but I tell you it feels like the abuse will never quite following me! Help!
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