My H and I were scheduled to take a 3 day vacation tomorrow and return on Sunday. The thought of me going away with him, him getting drunk; wanting sex and me putting my "happy face" on was all too much to bear. I just couldn't do it. Since I am getting over a cold, I used the excuse that I just wasn't up to going away, and now he has cancelled the trip. Truth be told, I don't want to go away with him at all. I am nearing the end of my rope with everything.....I am beginning to dream of escaping to my own place where I can be free to be me and not be berated or verbally abused. I'm just so tired of walking on eggshells. I guess the whole idea of pretending to be "lovey dovey" on Valentines Day was just too much for this girl to take.
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