II CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. WHAT HAVE I DONE TO ALLOW PEOPLE LIE M. INTO MY LIFE? I HAVE NO ENERGY. HIS GIRLFRIEND AND THE FUN PLAYTHING THEY HAVE MADE OF ME IS GETTING SERIOUS. ONE OF THESE JOKERS IS PROBABLY READING THIS ON THE COMPUTER. IS ONE NOT ENTILTED TO FEEL SAFE WHEN THEY GO OUT IN PUBLIC. I AM OUT ALONE ALOT. MISS L., THE PART TIME GIRLFRIEND OF M. WHO IS THE MAIN HUB TO THIS DARK CIRCLE OF PEOPLE INTENT ON GASLIGHTING ME-THE RICH, MANIC-DEPRESSIVE WHO WASN'T ALLOWD TO SEE ME EITHER-AS WAS EVERYONE I INTRODUCED M. TO. WHATEVER HE TOLD THESE POOR PEOPLE ABOUT ME, PROTECTING HIMSELF, HAS GOT EVERYBODY PICKING ON ME. I CAN'T HAVE ANY FRIENDS, EVEN THOUGH M. HAS A LOT. I TOLD PEOPLE HE'S ON DRUGS, AND HE IS. I FINALLY THREW HIM OUT 2 MONTHS AGO-A PLACE TO PUT HIS THINGS WHILE HE VISITS HIS RICH FRIENDS I AM NOT ALLOWED TO KNOW. AFTER MY INFATUATION WITH THIS CREEP IS OVER, I HAVE NO SELF ESTEEM, I CRY A LOT. I GET SCARED OR ANGRY AND DEPRESSED. WHEN I SEE THE MOST RECENT FRIEND I HAVE AND MISS L. TAKES THEM TO HER HOUSE AND THEY DON'T TALK TO ME.I'M FRIGHTENED. NOBODY PROTECTS ME. I HAVE HEART PROBLEMS, AND NO FAMILY. I JUST WANT ALL OF THEM TO JUST LEAVE ME ALONE, BUT THEY WON'T . I KNOW THAT ASSHOLE TOM WHO USED TO BE MY FRIEND THIRTY YEARS READS THESE, THAT'S HIS JOB, TO TELL MIKE. WHO IS SOME KIND OF DRUG-CRIMMINAL AND GOES OUT WITH ALL KINDS OF MEN AND WOMEN. HE GETS HIS WAY. WHEN I TRIED TO TALK TO HIM ABOUT THIS HE DENIED EVERYTHING. I WENT TO THE STORE AFTER CHURCH AND WHO WAS THERE BUT MISS L. I WALKED AWAY BECAUSE SHE WAS TRYING TO ACT LIE SHE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING. I FEEL TOTALLY NUMB. I FEEL NOTHING, LIKE IN SHOCK. I AM AFRAID, IT DOES NOT STOP. IMAGINE ABOUT 5 OR MORE PEOPLE CALLING HARASSING YOU. GETTING OTHERS TO, AND THE RICH BITCH MISS MANIC DEPRESSIVE WHO IS A SEX ADDICT LIKE M. ACTS LIKE A SAINT IN CHURCH. THE PILLER OF SOCIETY. AND I AM NOTHING BECAUSE THEY ARE MAKING SURE EVERYBODY IN THIS SMALL TOWN DISLIKES ME. I CAN'T HANDLE IT ANYMORE.
Posts You May Be Interested In
I miss traveling with my husband. Has anyone found a specific site regarding cruising for widow/widowers or any sightseeing trips. Not interested in being with couples and kids,,,I realize a cruise ship will have a portion size of families and couples, but perhaps they also put together a part of the cruise ship for groups of widows/widowers????
A friend sent this to me..As far as I can see, grief will never truly end.It may become softer overtime, more gentleand some days will feel sharp.But grief will last as long as Love does - ForeverIt's simply the way the absence of your loved onemanifests in your heart. A deep longing accompaniedby the deepest Love some days. The heavy fog mayreturn and the next day, it may recede.Once again, it's...