I hate being honest about this but there is no point in hiding it. I had to move back to my abusive Ex-fiancee a couple of months ago when I hurt my neck. Well he hit me a few times today. It was a terrible fight. In the three years of him hitting me I have never hit him back ...well today he pushed me to my limit and I picked up a sauce pan from the stove and hit him in the hand really hard... when he went to hit me again. Now I feel terrible for doing it, eventhough he deserved it. Not a good day!!
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