Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
Hi, I just joined here.
My very first boyfriend and last was abusive to me physically and mentally and it still makes me sick to think about.
I left him almost 7 years ago but the effects still linger, will they always be there? I have not dated anyone else since and have ran from trying, but I feel im ready now and I know it will be really hard for me.
The first person who was supposed to love me and everything nice was just cruel to me and I hope I can be better from all that.
I finally realized that I was innocent and expecting the best of everything and to have him hurt me so bad really traumatized me and tore me apart, for 4 years I was confused and scared of even speaking, I knew I would say something stupid.
I remember the day I wondered what I was doing, when he came back inside from mowing the grass and I was picking up the grass he left behind on the floor and he dropped a hat and I picked it up because I knew he would blame it on me doing it. Reaching over to pick that hat up I stopped and asked myself what I was doing, and that was the first question that began my journey back to myself.
It was so hard and scary leaving him but also so empowering, I felt so strong the first time I said no and I jumped back expecting him to hit me but he just drove off angry.
I just hope and pray I never have to go through that again.
But I would love to know what it is supposed to really be like.
My very first boyfriend and last was abusive to me physically and mentally and it still makes me sick to think about.
I left him almost 7 years ago but the effects still linger, will they always be there? I have not dated anyone else since and have ran from trying, but I feel im ready now and I know it will be really hard for me.
The first person who was supposed to love me and everything nice was just cruel to me and I hope I can be better from all that.
I finally realized that I was innocent and expecting the best of everything and to have him hurt me so bad really traumatized me and tore me apart, for 4 years I was confused and scared of even speaking, I knew I would say something stupid.
I remember the day I wondered what I was doing, when he came back inside from mowing the grass and I was picking up the grass he left behind on the floor and he dropped a hat and I picked it up because I knew he would blame it on me doing it. Reaching over to pick that hat up I stopped and asked myself what I was doing, and that was the first question that began my journey back to myself.
It was so hard and scary leaving him but also so empowering, I felt so strong the first time I said no and I jumped back expecting him to hit me but he just drove off angry.
I just hope and pray I never have to go through that again.
But I would love to know what it is supposed to really be like.
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I know what you've been going through, as we've been friends for some time now. I think you have come a long way from when we first met. To find yourself is truly empowering and you have to take that journey into finding yourself before you will be able to give 100% to someone else. This doesn't mean you can't be human and show emotion when you feel it. It's okay to feel down and out and it's normal to hold doubt and suspicion when it's rendered but i think you're already on the right path just by what you've said thus far! And I am here for you every step of the way.
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