I hold on to the bad and never forgive i am not sure how to fully forgive.I feel i can start fresh if i let go. I have blocked so much from an early age that was bad that the good things in my life is hard to remember.I was sexually abused as a child starting at age 5 and not just 1 person and some were family.I was physically and mentally abuse as well during childhood. By mom and dad. I have also had abusive romantic relationships. I always left after the first time until my marriage and the 5 relatonships since all have been abusive. It is a pattern i want to break. I wish i could bump my head and lose all my memeories and start fresh. I just need to accept what has happened and move on.
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