Just found out that while I was rubbing his ego, his feet and anything else, he had an online dating profile. Not just any dating profile but an adult profile. Looking for a one night stand and he had the nerve to ask for someone he could have an intelligent conversation with. I am a straight A student with a goal of a Dr. degree. Like he is going to find better than me on an online site in a one night stand. I am sick to my stomach. I was having unprotected sex with him. Though I doubt he found his one night stand. How could he have treated me this way and how do I not take it personally. Lesson learned, an abusive asshole is still an abusive asshole after you take the liquor out of them. And I was jealous of the fact that he had a new girlfriend..... now I see it is only a matter of time till he treats her like shit too. How do I convince myself that it is not me..... I am beautiful, smart and caring. I don't understand.... is he just pure evil.
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