I finally left him and now live separate with my two kids. I have thought about this for 3 years now and this summer was the time to do it. I live a few blocks from him and I am having nightmares about him. Why does it feel like it is my fault? He didnt try to change anything so I had to leave. Why was it a surprise to him? I feel so confused and lonely. I do not feel a whole person, cannot feel good about myself, just want to find the energy to do something for me. I know it takes time, but why do I feel to blame for everything? I need to go back to the house as I told him I would help with fixing up for the sale. It is hard..but I want this over..dont I? Even though it's been hell living with him, a part of me is very afraid of divorce and ending all ties. I know I can do this, even though I worry about keeping it together for my kids. I feel like I have to shed something, but how do I do it? Time doesnt move fast enough...
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