Since I finally let friends and family talk me into talking with someone at DVIS and I've asked my husband to leave, he's went through how I was F-ing crazy and he is the one thats abused and I'll never have custody of our daughter, to telling me that he loves me and always has and only wants a separation because we never really dated to the stage were at now thats most hurtful. Hes unemotional, he's never helped much with bills but within the last 3 weeks he has been paid 1200. and I've seen $200 of it because he heard me telling our daughter that I didn't have money to go buy groceries. I tell her that I can't afford to buy her shoes until this weekend when we'll go to goodwill, he takes her out that evening, I tell her you can't do that and he tells her it's ok. My daughter from a previous marriage gets nothing. He comes home laughing saying he hasn't ate out so much in his whole life, I can't take the kids or myself out to eat, He went to the bar after work today and came home half drunk and told our daughter he'd take her to look for some jeans and I told him she couldn't ride with him, he'd been drinking so he said then you'll have to drive us, she was crying because she was already promised so my 4 hours of sleep last night will repeat itself tonight since I had laundry going and several other things I had to finish once we got home. If I get upset he sits unemotional and says I don't care what you say, nothing you say is going to bother me, your crazy and mean. Calls his old friend that he had quit hangin with several years back because they get together and get DRUNK DRUNK and sits around talking and laughing loud saying, F-ing this and F-ing that and our daughter hears him. HOW DO I MAKE HIM LEAVE? DVIS said I'll need to play actress abit longer and go along with him carefully while raising the money for an assisted attorney, It's still $600 up front and 160. a month until it's paid off, I don't have that. Please any advise anyone has, I feel as if I'm just going to collapse somedays, the hurt just continues. We've been together 10 years and I found an old email I had wrote him back in 99 asking him why he got so mad and called me a F-ing whore and cunt and went onto to say that I loved him and I was trying to show him how much I loved him but it was never enough...I think I am the crazy one, it's been the same on and off for 10 years...Omgosh....I'm ashamed I've put the kids through this.
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