I have something that has been bothering me for several weeks now. I grew up in a home with two abusive parents. My dad was a drunk who I kept a relationship with my whole life, he passed away in 1998. My mother was something that at times I have described as evil. I am not sure that is right. My question is are some people really just plain evil? This is a woman who never seemed to be capable of any kind of love for anyone. Except for herself. She really seems to adore herself. I could write a book on the things she has done. I lived with her until I was 15, didn't see her from 15 to 21. When I was 21, I tried again, it only lasted 1 year before I couldn't take it anymore. Saw her again from the time I was 32 till I was 36. I am now 44 and have recently heard that her health is not great. I haven't seen her in eight years and a part of me fears that if she dies and I don't try again, I will have regrets. The saner side of me says not to bring her back into our lives, she will bring nothing good to us. I have two children with a mitochondrial myopathy as well as having problems with this disease myself. Stress only makes our condition worse. And this woman is nothing but stress. The last time I saw her she had told my brothers children that she had a bullet for each of them. One for you and one for you and one for you. She then came to my house to get her gun. Of coarse I hid it and would not give it to her. She was 68 years old at the time. I know she will never change. Do you think I will regret it, if I don't try again?
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