Hi I am new to this and I really have no one to talk to. In May I had met a marine who literally swept me off my feet. I had never done the whole dating thing and he lived in NC, where I live in NJ. He was up for Fleet week in NYC where we met at a bar. He talked to me daily and drove up to see me just for two days a week later. He would continue to drive up any time he had 2-3 days off. He was very pushy into having a relationship and i really wasnt into it at first but he was sending me flowers every other week telling me how beautiful i was daily how could i resist. He treated me like gold. So we started dating and saying i love u way to quick. He swept me off my feet an di was head over heels. I quickly would start to realize there were two sides of him. When he wasnt getting his way he d call me names say f u. and manipulate me into doing whatever he wanted.. Stupid things really like just sending him pictures of myself which i didnt mind doing.. but soon it would get rediculous . When he was upset with me he was just nasty and i dont think i ever called him names. He twisted my words and basically make moutaints out of mole hills. I know i should have gotten out of this already but I was in love and still am. Because once the monster is gone.. the sweetest guy in the world that i fell in love with arrives. but most reacently has been the worst fight yet. He is ending it with me because he wants to get engaged. He is being depployed in january.. we have been dating since may. I dont think so. But he tells me how much he loves me how perfect i am but he wants to end it .. unless i say yes to him. I have cried for the last two days. because he is so so mean via text message. he tells me he hates me and wants nothing to do with me. That i am an s.o.b. and that he wants to go screw other people because he doesnt care. Then the next second he is telling me how he wants to wake up to me every mornign because he thinks im perfect and that even after not really keepin up with myself i am still beautiful to him and perfect but yet he is pushing me away and wants me to beg but at this point it is down to me saying yes to get engaged which I am not. I am so stupid for even being in this mess. I cant talk to anyone my friends arent fond of him for good reason. but they dont understand i cant talk to my mom she was physically and emotionally abused i dont want her to see her daughter go through this. I am too strong. but i need support hes breaking me down and for some reason i still want to be with him . help me please
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